God never lose sight of His children.
He is not absent, i guess tonight once again i experienced that.
just when i thought i’d be lost in all my nonsensical acts,
be swept by the waves of sinful pleasures…
and be thrown off tangent by the patterns of this world…
and my mind clouded with a whole lot of mess…
He spoke sense, so clearly, to me.
the whole lot of perspectives straightened out,
and realigned in the right places.
my mind a sudden clear.
He placed kakak as a protector amidst all these mess.
she was the only one firm in disallowing me to pick up the bad habits.
the one whom i confided and talk things out with all the time.
tonight we chilled, and talked about everything.
“you need to stand firm in who you are, and not change to fit in.”
“take a break after you quit, go out with your best friend..you haven’t hung out with her for very long right? take your time and go back to church…”
that hit me real hard.
kak, how did you know?
and once again, a non-christian telling me to go back to church.
not the first time in my life God used a non-christian to tell me that.
i told her i decided not to be close to my best friend…
and after identifying that i’ve changed and became almost incorrigible,
“see. maybe that’s why your friend doesn’t want to care anymore. that’s best friends for you. they can nag and nag but if you don’t want to listen, they’ll just leave you alone.”
this caused me to have so much to talk to ling about.
in fact, kakak was the one who brought ling into the picture tonight, and got me reminded that it was her birthday. and i’m glad i chose to text her.
i’m astounded too, by the fact God has graciously granted me wisdom and discernment as well. that i’m not blind to the people and things that are revolving around me. this, serves as a protection.
josel needs to wisen up. at least i now know what the world really is like.
in fact, about two days ago i knew God was drawing me back to Himself when i felt like i really needed to intercede for a brother.
somehow the way kakak spoke to me was exactly the way cousin lilian did – care with sacarsm. haha.
